happy mother

josh had agreed to let me sleep in on mother's day, even though sunday is usually his day to sleep. saturday night, though, i told him i didn't want him to get up with bebe when she woke up. i felt bad -- he has to get up and go to work every weekday and i really wanted him to get a chance to catch up on sleep. besides, i love being with my baby. it's my absolute most favorite thing to do in the whole entire world. so i couldn't really think of a better way to spend my first mother's day.

bebe was up early. and when i say early, i actually mean EARLY. like, 4:45 early. (my subsequent exhaustion is why i didn't post yesterday!) she started out the day pretty fussy, which, i mean, who wouldn't be, waking up at the crack of dawn? we made some coffee and settled in to watch sportscenter, which is how we like to start our days. we played and nursed and snuggled and nursed and played some more. we looked for dogs out the front window. we practiced saying "mama." we nursed and snuggled. and as she nursed i held her foot and kissed it over and over again, and stroked the softsoft skin of her arm, and watched her eyes go all glassy with comfort. and i just kept thinking, you're really here. you're really mine.

i don't need a special day. i think about how lucky i am to be her mother all the time.